Arlene Ang |
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In current
experiments on the postwoman / The
incarceration of the man holding a wine bottle / Plate IV: Black Ink on
White
audio |
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In current experiments on the postwoman we
have her stand under an umbrella. She has nine fingers wrapped around
the
handle. The day is bleak and defaces her features. From a distance, the
rain
swallows her like a birdcage. She is wearing something red—a coat
perhaps, or
blood. The passersby repeat themselves on the sidewalk. They sport a
gait that
is the result of micro-amputations from squirrel bites or storm
accidents.
We’ve closed all the shops where she is scheduled to deliver mail. She
doesn’t
remember where she’s parked her motorcycle. The downpour appears to
have stolen
her vision. Previously, we have ascertained that the postwoman is not a
bat and
doesn’t function on radar. This spurs her to ask those coming her way
the
reason why she is at work when others have gone home. We observe the
fury in
her and how it is affecting the dormant fury in others. She is
shouting, and
everyone else is shouting back at her. She throws her house key on the
ground,
like a dead hamster. We study it closely. It could be important. It
could be a
sign that a keyhole or a fist is due to appear. Any moment now. * The incarceration of the man holding a wine bottle takes
place in the cat’s vomit. There’s claustrophobia there, too—between
those bean
clusters. And a coin, shaped into a world. You remember putting the
penny last
night in your mouth, like a nipple. The metallic taste constructed its
ruins
among your teeth. The first time you tried to poison sewer rats, you
killed
something else. And now you’re out of milk again. You take out the
empty
cartons from the garbage bag and look at the missing faces. How cold
your hands
feel around the tabby’s neck. The phone buzzes, a kind of pocket
jingling. You
don’t grab the receiver because it is not a shovel. There’s time for
that
later. For moving bodies. For holding that man’s head underwater
knowing he’s
you. For grieving all those secret hate letters lost to arson. Outside
the
night drinks from a satellite dish iced with stars. You put that coin
away
every time, and then pull it out of a stranger’s ear, like a genie from
the
lamp. ** A
freight train disintegrates the ashtray. And the gray rings left on the
mahogany table by cold glasses. What was the suicide thinking when his
face
fell and crushed the centipede? Here’s a father worn down by the habit
of
living. His coat is street lamps and blue-bottle flies. Hasn’t it
always been
like this, Herr Doctor? My mother, as you’ve already guessed, wore her
boots
while giving birth to my dead brother. The spurs left tracks on the
back of my
hands. Sometimes I see him in the postcards I receive during summer. He
is
either in shavasana or captivity. He is small, like a squint. I touch
wood and
find him in the splinter. |
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